My name is Rick Rawson. At one and the same time, I have found God and I am also on a journey to find Him. If you do not know what that means, I cannot explain it.

In 2007, I resigned from the Elder Board of my local church after completing one year of a three-year appointment. I did not leave because I had lost my faith, or because I was upset or angry at the Board’s business. I was on good terms with my fellow Board members. Some might interpret my decision as a mid-life crisis, but I have written documentation going back decades that supports my contention that what was going on in my heart had been brewing for a very long time. After 40 years in the wilderness, one day, Moses turned aside to see a burning bush. My year on the Board forced me to recognize the wilderness within. Leaving the Elder Board was a “burning bush” experience for me. Though I lacked details, I sensed that the reality of the Christian faith ran a whole lot deeper and was categorically different than what I had ever experienced. I turned aside from my historical practice of Christianity and my shallow spirituality to focus on one thing: God, Himself. That is when this journey, which is my life, percolated to the surface.

During the initial steps in my journey, I was admittedly cynical and critical of my own practices and spirituality. At the same time, I was struggling to figure out where to go. Those times have been documented elsewhere. But, there came a day when a transition occurred. It was not a stark line that I crossed, but a gradual movement from negative to positive, from looking back to asking, “Now what?”, from thinking in terms of “where have I been?” to contemplating “where am I going?”

This blog documents the movement of the Spirit of God in my life as He creates, molds, and redeems me into the person who will spend an eternity in His bosom. Posts that appear here are meant to document what God is currently doing in my life, but I have included documents written over the last several years because they represent key progressions in my thought and life, ones that deeply inform how I view my spirituality to this day.

This is not a blog about theology or philosophy, per se. Jesus did not step out of heaven, come to earth, and suffer and die just so that we could get our theology straight. He came to take us to God. Following Christ’s lead, this blog is about my pursuit of God, and the interaction of my soul with that of the Divine. When I left the Elder Board, I started a journey, one that will continue until I take my last breath. Because God is continually creating me and drawing me to Himself, nothing I write here is final: I am God’s project and He is not finished with me, yet.

You may see some of yourself in what I write. My goal is to be brutally honest and to bring to the surface issues that have plagued me for decades, give voice to them, and then describe how God is leading me through them. I hope that you will share your own struggles and concerns, as well, so that we can walk together. “Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil.”

6 thoughts on “about”

  1. William adams said:

    Am I the only person currently alive on this earth who talks with God? I am currently searching for others to whom God talks. Why? Because, yesterday he told me me I had “one minute” to “find my voice”! No, I’m not crazy, I wish I were. While I am sure of many things, and later find I’m mistaken, this is not one of those things. I have had a personal relationship with Jesus since I was about 21. I have led a regular human life…..exceptional, but human none the less. When I have disobeyed His instructions, and I knew I was disobeying, I suffered. But when I did what I was told, my life went along somewhat smoother. My views on the church, the “church”, and church in general would be grounds for fighting among most who call themselves Christian. I am well aged now and care little for anything, except as I have all my adult life, the things of the Lord. I am not well educated, refined, or of high social standing. But I can and do the impossible, with and out of nothing, when He asks me. I witness freely, but expect little or nothing. I sow. God will harvest. Since I can do simple math I know I have 364 days left (plus or minus 6 hours for those who are perfectionists), to prepare for whats expected of me. I have studied the Bible, and cannot be swayed or fooled by anyone or anything. My views are so so different that I seldom express them openly, except to witness of the Living Jesus, regardless of whom that offends. When I listen to those who tell others they are called of God, I am usually sickened buy what escapes their mouths. I do believe in Divine Judgement, both today, and after. If anyone else hears God, please feel free to email me williamadams56@gmail.com.
    Will adams

  2. Someone pointed me to your blog from mine. Sounds like you’ve been on an awesome journey with God. In some ways, similar to my own. God is awakening His bride to passion for Him instead of just doing things for Him. I look forward to reading your posts. Blessings.

  3. Rick,
    I’m sorry. Here is the post I wrote.

  4. Hi Rick,
    I just wanted you to know that I’m still interested in your testimony… if you have written it down… and want to share it.

    ps – I really liked your current piece on death. I really liked it. I so enjoy reading what you write. I look forward to every post you put out and read them almost as soon as you publish them.

    psps- I wrote about death once. I had a vision about it. It is trite. It probably won’t have any effect. But it was a vision and I thought I share it with you. Not to try to ‘fix’ you. I don’t think you need ‘fixing’ at all. You seem very grounded to me.


    blessings always,

  5. Hi Rick,

    I love your blog. We think very similarly about how to approach our Christian walks.

    I’m in the process of putting together Christian testimonies on my blog. If you have yours written down, would you mind if I “borrowed” it? I would need to copy and paste it directly to my blog for a full effect. It would be part of a group that would be listed under a “Testimonies” Page at the top of my blog.

    God Bless,
    robin claire

  6. I’m writing this comment because I feel we are on parallel paths. I’m on a continual digging expedition trying to un-cover and un-earth treasures God has put before me. I have lived an “interesting” life in regard to my spiritual journey, but Christ is always at the center of it.

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